Apologies

I'm sorry for losing touch.
I haven't been doing the greatest - too much of too many things... depression, France sucking, feeling cold, trying to adjust to Fabrice in the not-so-good times, missing people and places and things....
I was too ashamed and feeling sorry for myself.
I sometimes wish I drank so that I could go to rehab and get help instead of retreating into the shadows of my own despair.
I want to go home to the States. But don't really have anywhere to go.