I Don't Know What it is, But it's Cool!!

In a recent post, another blogger discussed her geekiness.

In high school, I was not only a geek, but I was not allowed to wear makeup, my parents refused to buy clothes for me and my sisters more than once every couple of years, I had braces, and I was even more painfully shy than I am now. What a fantastic combination for the popularity contests that American high schools are!!!

Or not.

But I didn't care. Or did I? Of course I cared! I'd like to say that I was bigger than that, or better, or smarter. I would like to say that I understood the philosophical void that high school popularity was. But it wouldn't be true.

Now, though, now I am relatively happy with who I am. Oh, I am still geeky, and shy, and nerdy and dorky and all of those things that I hated about me in high school. But now I really don't care. I am who I am, and that's okay.I'm not ugly. Or mean. Or stupid.

I have good friends.

I care about people.

I try to live in accordance with what I believe, to do my best, to do the right thing, etc. I really do.

I have a hard time admitting when I am wrong.

And I have a host of other faults that I won't get into now.

But, interestingly, I have found that, being myself and accepting myself, in all my geekiness, and, yes, dorkiness, was okay.

Even more interestingly, the people I once only hoped to be friends with (as in, when I was in high school - the cool kids, th epopular kids, the kids who had something that I could never hope to possess, even though I still don't know what that particular thing is), are now closer friends than the friends I was actually friends with at the time.

Confidence. Or a carefully-hidden lack thereof. Or realizing we're all people. Or just knowing that it's alright to be who you are...

I don't know what it is, but it's cool!!