What's Up
Things are not so great in these here parts. We're still in Ca, for the time being. Fabrice is devastated by what has happened to him, and despite dozens and dozens of resumes sent he's had no bites. We're running on empty, emotionally and otherwise, and have never been closer to divorce.
I feel guilty, but at the same time, I am mad. I've done everything I can to support him, but not only is he not thankful, but he also doesn't appear to think I've done enough.
I hated living in France, but truly believe that at this point in time, that is the best solution, as Fabrice still has a job there, even though they are going to sanction him with up to two months work without pay for signing documents he didn't understand.
I also think it will be easier to help mend his barely alive relationship with his two daughters who were extremely hurt when he left their mother, more by the how he left her than by the mere fact that he left. Shes a good woman, and, even though we haven't met, yet, she and have gotten to be quite good friends between msn and my efforts to improve their relationships.
But Fabrice does not want to go back to France. And he thinks he is a failure. He's been having nightmares about the Army. He keeps working on getting a law enforcement-related job in CA, but by the time he gets all the paperwork done, we'll have run out of money.
So I am probably going to go back to France next week, and he will either follow, or he won't, if his dreams come true and he gets a job in time.
He is totally demoralized. Understandably.
And so am I. I try to be positive, but even that makes him mad. So I don't know what to do. If I prepare for going back to France, he gets depressed and upset, thinking that my heart's desire is to go back to France. If I work on finding him a job here, he tells me it's no use.
I miss M & M, but my daughter doesn't even want to talk to me, and my son is busy with finals. Throughout her existence, I have done nothing but take care of her, and do my best to do the right thing, always. and this is how I end up?!
What's a girl to do?!!!
I feel guilty, but at the same time, I am mad. I've done everything I can to support him, but not only is he not thankful, but he also doesn't appear to think I've done enough.
I hated living in France, but truly believe that at this point in time, that is the best solution, as Fabrice still has a job there, even though they are going to sanction him with up to two months work without pay for signing documents he didn't understand.
I also think it will be easier to help mend his barely alive relationship with his two daughters who were extremely hurt when he left their mother, more by the how he left her than by the mere fact that he left. Shes a good woman, and, even though we haven't met, yet, she and have gotten to be quite good friends between msn and my efforts to improve their relationships.
But Fabrice does not want to go back to France. And he thinks he is a failure. He's been having nightmares about the Army. He keeps working on getting a law enforcement-related job in CA, but by the time he gets all the paperwork done, we'll have run out of money.
So I am probably going to go back to France next week, and he will either follow, or he won't, if his dreams come true and he gets a job in time.
He is totally demoralized. Understandably.
And so am I. I try to be positive, but even that makes him mad. So I don't know what to do. If I prepare for going back to France, he gets depressed and upset, thinking that my heart's desire is to go back to France. If I work on finding him a job here, he tells me it's no use.
I miss M & M, but my daughter doesn't even want to talk to me, and my son is busy with finals. Throughout her existence, I have done nothing but take care of her, and do my best to do the right thing, always. and this is how I end up?!
What's a girl to do?!!!
posted by Nana @ 14:35
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