Yesterday
We had a pretty good day, yesterday. One of my better birthdays, I must say, albeit a wee bit on the lonely side.
In the late morning/early afternoon, Morgan and I took a walk from our place to Fisherman's Wharf, for ice cream ~ I can't eat cake, so ice cream was de rigueur in honor of my 41 years!!
Along the way, we found a number of sand dollars washed ashore to add to our collection. That was cool, except that I found the tiniest sand dollar, only about a centimeter in diameter, but it got crushed by my movement on the way home. Too bad. Although, now I have a goal in mind, I need to find another tiny sand dollar someday!!
A couple of weeks ago, Jen, Morgan and I went hiking in Big Sur. Despite the sunscreen I used, I got a little burned that day, and would up with a farmer's tan. So, yesterday during our walk to and from the wharf, I wore a sleeveless dress, and no sunscreen. Now my upper arms are burned, too, so maybe my color will even out a bit. I know, I know, all sun is bad... I'll wear sunscreen from now on. It's just frustrating that skin looks so much better dark!!!!
When we got home, we hung out a bit, did laundry, etc. We watched the movie, Must Love Dogs, on HBO, that was fun.
In the evening, my friend, Tim, came over, and taught me how to make chicken paprikash. It was absolutely delicious. We had fun. Spending time with Tim is always fun. We've known each other for 16 years, now, so it's a pretty safe and comfortable friendship, which is great!
Jen and Vicky called to wish me a happy birthday, too, and a couple of other friends sent e-cards. The only real downside was one friend here in town who forgot, even though we ran into each other on the way back from the beach, and that my sisters and son forgot, too. Oh well.
You wouldn't think it would matter. I'm a grown up for corn's sake!! But, this is one of the vestiges of my childhood that hurt me to this day. I didn't have birthday parties or presents after I was about 7 or 8 years old. My parents said that I behaved too badly during previous parties to have anymore. Or that I didn't deserve them. That hurt me terribly. It still does. I wish I were a bigger person, so I could get over it, and move on. But that pain is so deep, and so sharp, even now, that I don't know that I will ever be able to. It's like I am still afraid that I don't deserve it......... or even afraid that I know I don't deserve it, and that my parents were right, all along.
All in all, a pretty good day, though, I must say. Vicky and I, and maybe Tim, are going out for lunch and to the movies today. Morgan would be joining us, but she is going to a pool party at her friend, Rachel's, house, for most of the day, today. Given how hot it's been, and the fact that she was out of town for almost a month, I am sure she will have a wonderful time!
In the late morning/early afternoon, Morgan and I took a walk from our place to Fisherman's Wharf, for ice cream ~ I can't eat cake, so ice cream was de rigueur in honor of my 41 years!!
Along the way, we found a number of sand dollars washed ashore to add to our collection. That was cool, except that I found the tiniest sand dollar, only about a centimeter in diameter, but it got crushed by my movement on the way home. Too bad. Although, now I have a goal in mind, I need to find another tiny sand dollar someday!!
A couple of weeks ago, Jen, Morgan and I went hiking in Big Sur. Despite the sunscreen I used, I got a little burned that day, and would up with a farmer's tan. So, yesterday during our walk to and from the wharf, I wore a sleeveless dress, and no sunscreen. Now my upper arms are burned, too, so maybe my color will even out a bit. I know, I know, all sun is bad... I'll wear sunscreen from now on. It's just frustrating that skin looks so much better dark!!!!
When we got home, we hung out a bit, did laundry, etc. We watched the movie, Must Love Dogs, on HBO, that was fun.
In the evening, my friend, Tim, came over, and taught me how to make chicken paprikash. It was absolutely delicious. We had fun. Spending time with Tim is always fun. We've known each other for 16 years, now, so it's a pretty safe and comfortable friendship, which is great!
Jen and Vicky called to wish me a happy birthday, too, and a couple of other friends sent e-cards. The only real downside was one friend here in town who forgot, even though we ran into each other on the way back from the beach, and that my sisters and son forgot, too. Oh well.
You wouldn't think it would matter. I'm a grown up for corn's sake!! But, this is one of the vestiges of my childhood that hurt me to this day. I didn't have birthday parties or presents after I was about 7 or 8 years old. My parents said that I behaved too badly during previous parties to have anymore. Or that I didn't deserve them. That hurt me terribly. It still does. I wish I were a bigger person, so I could get over it, and move on. But that pain is so deep, and so sharp, even now, that I don't know that I will ever be able to. It's like I am still afraid that I don't deserve it......... or even afraid that I know I don't deserve it, and that my parents were right, all along.
All in all, a pretty good day, though, I must say. Vicky and I, and maybe Tim, are going out for lunch and to the movies today. Morgan would be joining us, but she is going to a pool party at her friend, Rachel's, house, for most of the day, today. Given how hot it's been, and the fact that she was out of town for almost a month, I am sure she will have a wonderful time!
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