The Boy Still Wasn't Answering....

.....but did I give up? Of course not! Being the stubborn soul that I am, and not knowing how else to reach him, I kept trying, and eventually received a response:

not a total breakdown, just a near nervousone. invovled me being stupid
and pissing off family. m never wants to see me again, but luckily
she will only have to see me thursday and maybe friday cause im going to
paris early, and then ill wait for things to cool off. id prefer to just
talk to you on aim. its not a HUGE deal so dont stress trust me mom.

M did still see him after this round of turmoil, but this certainly was an ominous episode.

Me being me, however, and despite trusting him as much as I could, I couldn't let it go, and finally got the story out of him:

basically. even after being told not to, i gave a LITTLE bit of herb to
my 15 year old brother (he already smokes but m doesnt want me to
give it to him). we were on vacation so i figured a little couldnt hurt.
she found out and FLIPPED (literally attacked me). today she told me that
she never wanted to see me again, we were on vacation like i said and were
in the south, just got there yesterday and she sent me home with her mom
this afternoon when i talked to my dad. he calmed her a little but she
still never wants me to be around again. were hoping that if i leave early
(normally i need to be in paris on monday for orientaiton and im
prolly gonna try to go on friday) and stay away for a while shell cool off.
thats fine with me, cause she kind of annoys me. whatever, i fucked up
so i gotta deal with the consequences. Im quitting smoking. i didnt
really think that detox would help cause thats not where my problem is.
its not an addiction to any particular thing (when i smoke i dont need to
drink, vice versa, etc.), its more psychological issues that i need to
work out that prompt me to get high in general. its an addiction to an
altered state of mind that lets me ignore my problems. but im not sure
in-patient would help anything either. ive already had to do enough
"in-patient" type stuff (i.e. hospital in IA city, four oaks, foster care,
etc) that im not sure i could handle another. even if it is as nice as
the one you showed me, and even though i didnt look at the site that much,
looks to me like the most "hippy-friendly" place that any rehab place
could possibly be (lol). in any case ill hopefully be in paris asap. im
hoping to go friday, m gets back from the south on thursday, that way
she has time to yell at me one more time without making me miserable for
any longer. lifes hard, but hey it all works out. ill prolly look into
psychologists at the university, my dad said they have some on hand there.
and another plus. with almost 5000 dollars to spend this year and not
smoking= me very rich for this year:-) talk to ya soon.

I thought that was that. I dumb mistake. Some serious consequences. A lesson learned. The End.

Unfortunately, to paraphrase someone much greater than I, it wasn't the end. it wasn't even the beginning of the end. But it was, perhaps, the end of the beginning!!!