It Wasn't Getting Any Better, Now, Was It?

To the pitifully veiled, inauthentic threat, I responded,

You are the one being disrespectful and hurtful to me.

You know perfectly well that you are not a lost cause, and that I love you very much.

But, you can't treat people badly. You can't expect to be able to pit me or your father and M, or P and D against each other, or expect any one of us to cover up such an important and serious problem.

Please calm down, think about what is going on, and treat all of us with the respect that we deserve. In this case, you screwed up, and we all need to deal with that. Lashing out at the people you hurt or offended is not going to help anybody.

Love,

Mom

Or was it getting better, after all?

im sorry. the principal reason i wanted to delay p and d knowig
about this is because in my experience they only make the situation worse.
they tend to get angry and their anger just propels me to drink more. i
really dont know how i need to handle this situation because having me
leave france is really not a feasible option. like i said yesterday im
quitting drugs, and im severely cutting back on my drinking but thats not
really wher the problem lies. the problem is the emotional issues that i
have (ie depression), stopping drinking and doing drugs is really less
than half the battle. at this point in my life im just very confused
about everything. i really dont know what i want to do. you know ive
been in college for two years, but i feel like im just wasting my time
cause i have no idea what to do with the education im receiving. m
got back today so i will have to talk to her and my dad tonight. luv you

nothing yet. but now that p + d are involved things are far out
of my hands. thats the other reason i didnt want to get them involved
this early, I really think that i can do this without rehab this year and
i want to try and they have a tendency to make things larger than they
need to be. obviously this is a big deal but i still think with proper
care its something that can be taken care of here, thats not to say that i
wouldnt be interested in camp recovery at some point. but like i said i
dont know the exact price but rehab in general=15-30 grand, and even if
some is covered by insurance i cant imagine all of it is. and frankly i
really want to try and pul this year off. thanks for the help. wish me
luck with papy and den tommorrow. im sure theyll be the same as they
always are (ie not helpful WHATSOEVER in a situation such as mine).
peace.

Thinking he was starting to think more clearly again, or that he'd blown things out of proportion, I responded, in all sincerity,

I understand your wanting to manage this year in France. I am sure that they have good psychiatrists, psychologists, and alcohol specialists in Brittany. You could get treatment at Camp Recovery next summer, if you need it. I believe that, as long as you complete the program, my insurance will pay at least 85%. I will look into that further should it be a realistic possibility.

Good luck with M and P and D. Make sure you accept responsibility for what you did, do not be confrontational or rude, and try to think of solutions to the problem that are workable and reasonable for everybody involved.

Remember that we all love you, and that we want you to be successful in school in Rennes, in life, in general, and in overcoming these chemical dependency problems.

Love,

Mom